Thursday, June 30, 2011

if you stay

before anything else, i am planning to  make a new fb account. those bitches won't stop bugging me.

btw,i feel happy whenever i hear the song "if you stay" so i am going to sleep tonight with head phones on.

500

this will be my last post for today

first, i was crying moments ago.i got so effin' pissed off because of my ex, a real pain in the ass.

second,i miss someone. but i think, she doesn't feel the same way.

third,i cut my shirt. i converted it a sleeveless top.

fourth, most of the person who saw me today adored my grey top. they were teasing me 'coz my top was so "thin", thin enough that one could really notice the body inside it. they were asking where did i bought it.

fifth,i was a bit in a state of awe when i learned that i still have 500 in my card.

sixth, this feeling is killing me. just want to cry. 
oh migraine,go away!!

do you really have to discuss that,sir?

i was so sleepy during our humanities class.goodness gracious.
our prof was so confident to think that we can really absorb everything he is showing us.
and i was like "do you really have to discuss that,sir?"

i'm sleepy and that tells it all.

fingers-crossed

just wanna make my first entry for today.

gee!! i woke up with a very tired heart. waking up like  this is not new to me however, i hate its effects on me the entire day.

fingers-crossed.i hope i can get through the day.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

curse you

i hate sudden chest pain ,palpitations accompanied by difficulty breathing---painful breathing is more appropriate.
this is really not easy. crying is the least i can do though it gives no relief actually.
let's call it a night.

damn coronary artery disease,curse you!!!cuuuuuurrrsssseeee yoooouuu!!!

my prince charming, where you at?HAHAHA

i got this from tumblr.com, just wanna share it.
this is very sweet,oh well i find it sweet.hmmkaay?
"i'll protect you"--simple but meaningful.

my prince charming,where you at?HAHAHA
i will always stay this way in love with you.

and i am feeling it right now.HAHAHA

there are times that you really feel like you are so tired of reviewing your notes(but the truth is,you have not flipped a single page of your notebook ) even though you have a big exam the next day. those kind of hunches really exist coz the thing is, there will really be no exam the next day.and the feeling gives you a bit of nervousness and all but in the end, the feeling is so beautiful,it's like you won the jackpot prize.HAHAHA

and i am feeling it right now.HAHAHA

it takes two to tango

to my ex

i am not a good pretender. it's just that,i really am over it. all i can say is: cherish what you have while you can,not when it's gone.

god knows what i did for you and god knows how genuine my love for you was. you just really don't know how to take care of things. you may say that you know how to love and all of that, but the truth is, you know nothing. you don't know what a relationship really needs in order to work it out. you know, it takes two to tango. yeah,you may have that honesty,love,a pinch of trust but its not enough. love is not enough. especially in our case, long distance relationship.


just a message away

we felt the same thing all along. may be you are right about ending it now, everything happened too fast.i respect your decision and it's fine with me.though i feel quite hurt.aaww. but then again,that doesn't mean that i am not going to keep my words.  i am still here for you. just a message away. :D 

it'll give you luck

just moments ago,my board mate stayed inside my room. out of my craziness, i showed her something. t'was a CONDOM.i kept it inside my pencil case. i don't keep it because i'm going to use it,i keep it there 'coz they say it gives you luck.the hear-says about condom is: when you keep a condom inside your wallet,it'll give you luck. but since i don't use wallet,only coin purse, i decided to place it inside my pencil case,below the pens.who knows it might even work.HAHA well,i don't really believe in that but there's no harm in trying.HAHAHA

2ft high

the smurfs:
i saw HANNAH-BARBARA cartoons, the smurfs, while growing. as far as i could remember,they are just 2ft high. these blue little gnomes are so cute and they live in a garden.they have this little white hat. i think, there's only one girl in their village,smurfette. oh i just find them really cuuuute.
should i blog?
my eyes are twitching.
i still have so many things to read.

surgical table

this is a picture of coronary artery by pass surgery.
since i have this heart condition for almost 5 years,i am always thinking of the possibility of  heart bypass which i know is not impossible. i wonder how it feels to lie still on the surgical table while doctors are trying to fix your heart.
i made my necklace into a bracelet.
i can now use this blogsite of mine. i changed some of its settings.oh well,i'm back for more stories that no one will ever know.hahaha 

you over her


10.43pm
6-25-2011


i choose you over her not just for the heck of me being able to say that i've finally moved on.i choose you over her because i love you.you came into my life in the most unexpected moment.i love you and that's what is always running into my mind.


it's you that i want,that i need.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

ALWAYS

ang layo mo.singapore ka,philippines ako.umm.wala lang.pero okay lang,di ko naman first time ang ldr eh.kaya ko to. :P

sana paniwalaan mo ako na mahal kita at mas mahal kita kaysa ex ko.sana wag mo isipin na di kita mahal kasi di un ang totoo. mahal kita jaymee. at siguro nga mas malambing ako ngayon kaysa sa mga nakaraan,well may be coz i want to prove you wrong bey coz you are really wrong.at ayoko rin na yun ang nararamdaman mo.gusto ko mafeel mo na mahal kita and that you mean the whole world to me now.

gaya mo,seryoso din ako sa relationship na to.i hope this will work .i'm not just hoping,i am praying for this relationship ALWAYS.

OH malayo nga tayo sa isa't isa kaya dapat ka mag-ingat jan.wala ako sa tabi mo para alagaan ka,para icomfort ka if nalulungkot ka.i may be physically absent but i am always here for you.aantayin ko pagbalik mo.aantayin ko yung time na talagang magkasama na tayo.

alam mo, opposite tayo eh. positive ako,negative ka.weak ka,strong ako.aww.di naman as in strong.HAHA. pero kahit ganun,mahal pa rin kita at mamahalin pa rin kita kahit magkaiba tayo.iintindihin kita hanggang sa kaya ko. susuportahan kita sa lahat ng gagawin mo. tutuparin ko na yung mga nasabi ko sa 'yo. lahat lahat na yon. i want this to work.

i love you jaymee.believe me beybie.

Monday, June 27, 2011

what will piss you off?

annoying,retarded persons..they're getting on my nerves.stop bitching puuuhlease.

how will you describe a perfect day?

perfect day?umm.now that would be,me doing the things i love without worrying about my woes and me just talking, cuddling my love ♥ ♥

Ask me anything

When was the last time you cried?

oh last night.

Ask me anything