i want to give myself a very very wide berth

im a girl with a dirty little secret which only few knows.

i loved her more than she deserves.we were in a long distance relationship then.im here in iligan and she's in gensan. they say LDR is very hard to handle but apparently we were able to defy the odds for like 15 months.i stayed faithful to her.the fact that she was my everything brought me so much pain when i learned from her that she cheated on me. i shed tears for 6months and still counting while she was just fooling around with her new girl.very painful.very very painful.when i went home,i talked to her.i slapped her inside the mall.i was in great damn pain while she was just smiling at me.very cruel.for about 2 weeks of my stay in gensan, i was seen most of the time inside the bar.drowning myself with all the drinks they offered.that made my condition worst.i grew thin and developed a new personality. i became less sensitive.

i didn't know what love is from the day she left me. i turned down all my suitors just because of her. i was a fool then believing that she still love me.i was a fool.

 i didn't accept her request from a social network coz i might just hurt myself with what is in her profile. i just want to save myself. i refused to feel the feeling i am feeling right now coz i know this will just hurt me. i want to give myself a very very wide berth. so please please stop making a connection with me coz you told me that you have your girlfriend already.i am happy that you are happy though it is really killing me.so please leave me alone. i am trying to live a life without you and please try to do the same.