it's a monster.it's eating me alive

i am pretty consumed by the fact that i am very poor.literally. this is what making me sad lately. well,i am not really that poor. its just that the money i have now is i think not enough for me. how i wish i was born with a silver spoon. i am getting tired waking up every morning thinking about this and also spending most of the day going through with it.
i am trying hard not to get this through my nerves but i just can't pretty help it. it's too powerful. it's a monster. it's eating me alive.
thinking about this is making my tears fall.i don't wanna be poor, i choose not to be poor.
this poor feeling is very devastating. it's making my entire world stop. i am not liking it.