Thursday, November 10, 2011

NEVER FELT

i've been through a lot of relationships.what would you expect,i'm a teen. i love experimenting. well so much for that.

just moments ago,i was talking to my girlfriend and we were playing the DO YOU game. it's just a simple game of exchanging questions about everything as long as the statement will start with "do you".

so here's the catch, my gf asked me about my regrets i have for my past partners.  i gave her my answers. she answered too. just right after her answers i told her that i'm a bit jealous over that situation she mentioned in her regret. i could really say that her ex was a lucky girl for having a partner like her. right there and then, things started flashing back to me and realizations were flowing.

--never felt that they are afraid to leave me behind.
--never felt that i'm their world/ i'm the center of their lives.
--never felt that they built their dreams around me.
--never felt that they needed me in their lives.

i never felt these things from all of them, not even once, not even a pinch. now i feel like i'm one fucking loser.

oh well, that's life. that's TEEN life. i'm a teen. i make mistakes. i misjudge situations.but sure thing, i learn from them.