just spill the beans: just a glimpse

just spill the beans: just a glimpse: "it was just this saturday that i went to paradise island.this is just a glimpse of the blog that i am going to make about my little vacat..."

just a glimpse

it was just this saturday that i went to paradise island.this is just a glimpse of the blog that i am going to make about my little vacation 

just spill the beans: so sweet this guy

just spill the beans: so sweet this guy: "i got a rice cake from a friend. i really am not sure if it is a rice cake or what. just minutes after i got out of bed, i got a message f..."

so sweet this guy

i got a rice cake from a friend. i really am not sure if  it is a rice cake or what.

just minutes after i got out of bed, i got a message from my classmate/neighbor.it's about him buying a puto maya and giving me some.so sweet,isn't it?may be thirty minutes after, i went out of the house and waited for him. riding a bike he went near me and gave me two pieces of puto maya.me so happy.

  

lucky to have a friend that is as sweet as him.

i think he's been doing this for almost a week already after sweating himself out of exercising. a very nice early morning routine,right? 

Me on Pescetarian Lifestyle

A pescetarian diet excludes land animals and birds, but includes fish, mollusks, and crustaceans in addition to fruits, vegetables, plants, legumes, nuts, and grains.  Eggs and dairy may or may not be present in the pescetarian's diet.

i am starting to be a pescetarian because of my allergies and current condition. i decided to eat a meal with only fish and vegetables, fruits too. i am new to this and i am still having a hard time looking for foods that would suffice the criteria of a pescetarian diet.

by the way,i am allergic to most foods. if i'm not allergic to it, i am not advised to eat it.so i made a conscious decision about me following a pescetarian lifestyle. and i feel better too. just started this last last week. seems to be working well. :">

and oh!actually, i cannot eat any sea foods due to allergies. i eat fish but not the black meat of the fish. no eggs and nuts for me too.  

i am more of a vegan for this case. i prefer eating veggies but i consume fish in a little amount.  

aside from my allergies, i want to change my lifestyle too by eating healthier foods as early as now. i have a very sedentary lifestyle and i fear that this might cause early death. 

just spill the beans: Me on Pescetarian Lifestyle

just spill the beans: Me on Pescetarian Lifestyle: "A pescetarian diet excludes land animals and birds, but includes fish, mollusks, and crustaceans in addition to fruits, vegetables, plants,..."

just spill the beans: watchathink??

just spill the beans: watchathink??: "we'll be having our college acquaintance party this friday. theme is 'be loud and proud'. we have to wear something loud, may it be a statem..."

watchathink??

we'll be having our college acquaintance party this friday. theme is "be loud and proud". we have to wear something loud, may it be a statement shirt or dresses with vibrant colors. the thing is, i have no idea what to wear and i don't know if i am going to attend the party too.

watchathink??

just spill the beans: hi there^^,

just spill the beans: hi there^^,: "hi there^^, i was not able to post blogs for two days straight 'coz i had to study my lessons, read my book cover to cover. tired and exha..."

hi there^^,

hi there^^,

i was not able to post blogs for two days straight 'coz i had to study my lessons, read my book cover to cover. tired and exhausted i was. i was supposed to post one last night but i fell asleep. just freakin' tired.

we finished our last concept of med-surg just this afternoon. gosh. in just two and half days, we covered everything about fluids and electrolytes. now this means that i am free tomorrow.buuuuut i am not going to be lazy tomorrow or tonight,i have to do some stuffs:

tonight-rewrite my notes
          -read my book
          -skim and scan my humanities book
          -wash clothes
tomorrow-study huminities
               -study med surg

but before anything else,i need to make a time in motion for all the things that i am going to do tonight 'til sunday. oh yeah, i follow schedules. whenever i miss something, i stay up late to really do the missed tasks. i feel so unproductive whenever i can't follow my schedules^^,

above are the things that i think i need to do. i want to do something else too,waaaaant it is. i want to finish reading the book i bought last last last week.can't barely finish it all for i have to do other things.other important things.

by the way,i ate sweet corn just moments ago. i am craving for more.huhu

just spill the beans: dizzy day

just spill the beans: dizzy day: "oh GOD oh GOD. i was so dizzy the entire day. i was walking like a drunkard. i really don't know what happened or what caused this dizzin..."

dizzy day

oh GOD oh GOD.

i was so dizzy the entire day. i was walking like a drunkard.
i really don't know what happened or what caused this dizziness.
i don't have my period too.
i talked to my mom about this, she told me may be i was just  tired or i lack sleep and that i should rest, get some sleep and take some vitamins.
i am still feelin' dizzy til now.

i am going to stay up late now.
i need to study for our exam tomorrow.
i wasn't able to read my notes earlier for i was reading my book in humanities.

just spill the beans: oh bitter

just spill the beans: oh bitter: "me sipping my coffee this time. just earlier tonight, my ex talked to me through fb chat. i posted some things on her wall too. well i am ..."

oh bitter

me sipping my coffee this time.

just earlier tonight, my ex talked to me through fb chat. i posted some things on her wall too. well i am not saying that she really is assuming, she is right with one thing: i miss her. but i just laugh it all off. don't wanna get too cheesy tonight.

oh by the way, she was able to visit my blogsite and she read some of my posts. then i know she'll read this too moments from now. some people just love stalking.HAHAHA

WE WERE having a good conversation then out of nowhere she blurted out about this "beybie, jaymie" and stuffs. i was not trying to ignore the issue, i was  just trying to be passive on this one. bygones be bygones. after all, nothing special really happened between me and that person she asked me about.

 what made me laugh tonight was the fact that her mood suddenly changed. OH BITTER. but i can't blame her. you should not ask me about her if you know it'll just hurt you--you know. don't be too masochist.

she posted a link on my wall too. a song. damaged by shayne ward. i searched the lyrics through the web and when i found the lyrics, it just made me smile. OH BITTER.

FOR A MONTH OR TWO, I AM JUST TRYING TO BE REALLY PASSIVE. DON'T WANNA TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY. I'M TIRED. I'VE BEEN THERE. I'VE BEEN HURT FOR SO MANY TIMES.

just spill the beans: crazy friday night

just spill the beans: crazy friday night: "i bought this last night. closer look.see those heels?? me wearing it. with my anklet.haha last friday night, me and my fr..."

just spill the beans: crazy friday night

just spill the beans: crazy friday night: "i bought this last night. closer look.see those heels?? me wearing it. with my anklet.haha last friday night, me and my fr..."

crazy friday night

i bought this last night.

closer look.see those heels??

me wearing it.

with my anklet.haha

last friday night, me and my friends went out to eat but we ended up shopping for shoes and dresses.right after we bought this, me and my friends decided to use it though i was really a bit hesitant but for their sake i did managed to wear it while going here and there,buying stuffs and all.

just after we arrived home, we had a little dress rehearsal. and out of our craziness, we went out again. now going to the shoppe nearby to buy something to eat. we went out using our newly bought sandals/boots and dresses. we were like the mean girls walking down the street but just in the wee hours.HAHAHA
impressed by our looks, everyone could not just get their eyes off us.we pretended that we just got out of the party house.craaaaaaaaaaazzzy night.

just spill the beans: just checking if she's doing fine

just spill the beans: just checking if she's doing fine: "every now and then i still am viewing my ex's account, just checking if she's doing fine. well as i see it, she is happy and i am happy. i..."

just checking if she's doing fine

every now and then i still am viewing my ex's account, just checking if she's doing fine. well as i see it, she is happy and i am happy.

i miss her stubbornness and how she would bother me amidst my busy life.HAHAHA

she is starting to be very assuming.

I WENT OUT TODAY WITH THIS GIRL. i was not expecting that it'll be a sort of formal lunch. she took me to a fine dine restaurant, right there and then i was confused why she took me there. well i thought we would just eat outside in a typical restaurant. i never saw it coming.

we talked about so many stuffs and all, this time she was very vocal about her affection towards me, i was just being passive. we ended up fighting on the table for i told her about what i did last night.i settled the issue by letting her believe what she wants to believe. what happened was inappropriate and shameful. i really don't have a thing for fights and i hate arguing. seriously. i sat silently. we're supposed to watch a movie but i refused her offer for some reasons regarding the movie house,i just don't wanna get disappointed.

surprisingly, late this afternoon she asked me about "us". she is starting to be very assuming. FVCK.  i told her i don't know for i really don't know, swear to GOD. she is nice but the fact that she is so near is something that i could not bear. i just don't like it. i don't want her following me like a dog. i want to be in a relationship where i still have the freedom to do what i want to do and i think she is the type that would stop me doing those things, i don't like it.

FUNNY YET FUN

during the wee hours of the night last night, me and my friends went out wearing OUR NEWLY BOUGHT super high heels. i was wearing a  top that made me look like a sweet school girl BUT bitchy. my dress was way too short exposing my legs plus i was wearing boots/stick heels that emphasized well the length of my legs. everyone was looking while we're walking down the streets and some did even stop to watch us go down the road. last night was indeed a very funny night. FUNNY YET FUN.

just spill the beans: TF: being in an LDR is fine but being close to you...

just spill the beans: TF: being in an LDR is fine but being close to you...: "TF: being in an LDR is fine but being close to your partner is much better, i mean best Sorry for not responding right away when you chatte..."

Love Is Never Easy and Distance Doesnt Make It Any Easier by Any Means but It Does Make You Realize What You Want What You Need and Most Importantly Realizing That One Person You Dont Mind Missing Because Its the One Person You Cant Live Without

TF: being in an LDR is fine but being close to your partner is much better, i mean best

TF: being in an LDR is fine but being close to your partner is much better, i mean best

Sorry for not responding right away when you chatted me.i went out with my friends and I just left my laptop open while I was gone.

Well may be for some it is best but in my case I CONSIDER IT NOT, I am not saying that I totally do not agree with your idea.i favor that a partner that is close is best. However, in my case at this moment, it is not for reasons that I see worth it.

First, I am still a student and I am type of person who see my studies as one important thing and that I don’t want to create in any way a thing that might stop me from pursuing the dreams I long and I hope to have in the academe.

Second, I have been in a LDr since I started this bf-gf/gf-gf thing. It worked and still working well on me. I favor this kind of relationship for one thing: I don’t pose a problem on my studies. And I like it.

Third,  I know LDR as how I know well the back of my hand.  I know how this works and how I can settle its problems. I may not always have a happy ending as evidenced by me being single this time but more often than not, I really know how to work it out. Moreover, I see this kind of relationship as a nicer way to prove that the love you have is genuine. I know that most people know that this is a hard thing to fathom and that it takes a lot of patience, understanding and great heap of trust for this to work. And I am proud to say that I have those things and I am enhancing each one as day passes by, as lover passes by.HAHAHA

Fourth, this is how I see it and I am entitled of my own opinion, I guess. But nonetheless,I acknowledge your idea on this one.

I KNOW I’LL REACH THAT POINT IN MY LIFE THAT I'LL AN IDEA SAME AS YOURS BUT AS OF THIS MOMENT,I HAVE THIS OWN IDEA  AND IT’S WORKING, I AM COMFORTABLE WITH THIS.IN GOD’S TIME,I KNOW I’LL BE ABLE TO SAY THAT TOO, JUST NOT THIS TIME.

THANKS FOR DROPPING BY MR/MS  TF.  

just spill the beans: long time friend

just spill the beans: long time friend: "i was so lazy to create new posts,sorry for not blogging. well, yesterday i talked to a long time friend of mine who happened to be just a..."

long time friend

i was so lazy to create new posts,sorry for not blogging.

well, yesterday i talked to a long time friend of mine who happened to be just a house a away. we had a little misunderstanding so it was just yesterday that we finally talked and we're surprised that seven months have passed. seven months of not talking to each other and ignoring each other.

we are going out this weekend to watch harry potter and transformers. we planned to stay in a hotel for a night this weekend,i hope nothing bad will happen between us. i do like this person but the fact that this person is just a house away is making me sick. seriously.

 i don't really like engaging in a relationship that is not ldr. i prefer and i love ldr 'coz it really tests the fidelity of the lovers to each other and to top it, i don't want ruin my studies.  i can balance my studies and love life but i prefer not to have a partner that is so near me it terms of location. and it's good to miss someone sometimes :">

just spill the beans: sandals.star.

just spill the beans: sandals.star.: " trying the guess sandals. i really like it coz it looks good on my feet. star pillow.cute eh? this is joji. i had so much fun strol..."

sandals.star.

 trying the guess sandals. i really like it coz it looks good on my feet.  

star pillow.cute eh? 

this is joji.

i had so much fun strolling with joji,a gay friend. i accompanied him to cdo for he wanted to buy a new phone.i arrived home last night at around  11pm. i bought another book.HAHA

just spill the beans: i miss you

just spill the beans: i miss you: "i miss you but i am just tooooooooooooooooo coward to tell you that. GOOD NIGHT. let's call it a night. GOOD NIGHT AGAIN."

i miss you

i miss you but i am just tooooooooooooooooo coward to tell you that.
GOOD NIGHT.
let's call it a night.
GOOD NIGHT AGAIN.

long hair

i am definitely missing my long hair. i really love my long hair but since i am too lazy to fix it all the time,i decided to cut it. this is a picture i got from my friendster account,see i have long hair.

hazel brown

this is the only decent picture of mine with my hazel brown contacts and my ear pierce.i missed them.i lost my contacts and i had to remove the piercing for duty reasons.

no comment na lang din.

nakasanayan ko na kapag nasa downtown ako ay dadaan ako sa simbahan para magtirik ng kandila.

after ko magwithdraw,pumasok ako sa simbahan at nakinig sa misa.dumiretso na agad ako dun sa pinagtitirikan ng kandila matapos ang misa. nag-alay ako ng panalangin. pumasok na uli ako ng simbahan para magdasal ng mas taimtim.

sa jollibee na ako nagdinner.tapos uwi agad dito.

wala namang kakaiba na nangyari sa akin today.so ayon.yan lang.

ay meron pala. pagdating ko sa room kanina. pinagtripan ako ng tatlong kaklase ko, may sinasabi sila tungkol sa mga post ko ata un or ung paggawa ko ng new fb account, oh kahit alin man dun, basta pinagtripan nila ako.eh ako naman na napapagod mag-isip ay tumawa na lang para matapos ang usapan. ayun, natuwa sila.ako no comment na lang din.

you pervert!!

pauwi na ako ng bahay kanina pero napadaan ako sa tindahan.may lalaki ako na nakasabay.shit.kinakausap niya ako,me being polite answered him naman. until umabot sa punto na tinitignan niya hinaharap ko at sinabi niya na "gifted ka din noh?". "huh?" lang ang naisagot ko. maya maya tinitignan niya pa rin hinaharap ko at bigla niya nasabi "sigurado ako,masarap hawakan yan". bigla ako natahimik na parang ewan. bullshit.  wow, ito ata ang pinakaunang beses na nabastos ako ng ganun. wth. bwisit talaga. bwisit. mga pervert talaga karamihan ng lalaki ngayon. bwiiiiiiiiiiiiisssiiit talaga.

kainis

naremember ko yung unang beses na nalaman ng mga kasamahan ko dito sa bahay na babae partner ko. ako na masyadong fragile ay naiyak nalang.i took it seriously. iyak ako ng iyak. di ako umiyak dahil sa natatakot ako na ipagsabi nila ang tungkol dun,naiyak ako kasi nagpaparinig sila na bakit kailangan babae pa ang ipapartner eh may mga lalaki naman. ung mga panghuhusga na yun at mga walang basehan na pangungutya ang naging dahilan ng pag-iyak ko. kainis yung mga ganung tipo ng mga tao na kung makakomento eh animo'y wala silang nagawang mali at pinipilit na ang pakikipagrelasyon ng babae sa babae ay isang malaking kasalanan sa mata ng diyos. at kainis na huhusgahan ka base sa paniniwala nilang baluktot.

kakaiyak lang

bigla ako naiyak.
napapagod na ako na kahit anong oras or kahit saang lugar ay bigla sumasama pakiramdam ko. kakalungkot na di ko magawa yung mga ginagawa ko dati.
ayun.kakaiyak lang.

T_T    

just spill the beans: simple.comfortable.happy

just spill the beans: simple.comfortable.happy: "vintage sunglasses of mine. i brought this today coz we had a foot parade and the sun's rays are intolerable and i was wearing my green cont..."

simple.comfortable.happy

vintage sunglasses of mine. i brought this today coz we had a foot parade and the sun's rays are intolerable and i was wearing my green contacts. 

the sneakers i used today.it's pink,i know. 

closer look of my pink high cut sneakers.everlast.

details on the other side of this shoe is much prettier.

while i was sitting,i was bored so i took this picture.

i was wearing a white top, our college shirt, and i paired it with jeans plus that sneakers.simple.comfortable.happy. 

just spill the beans: anything under the heat of the sun

just spill the beans: anything under the heat of the sun: "see how messy my working table is. actually i don't like it coz it's messy but i like the fact that i exerted no effort in keeping my table ..."

anything under the heat of the sun

see how messy my working table is.

actually i don't like it coz it's messy but i like the fact that i exerted no effort in keeping my table clean. this is just the time to be lazy and all.

my van houten on top of my cup of coffee.

i bought this as gift for myself. gift for what reason?oh nothing special,i just want to eat chocolate,you know. 

i went to school wearing a pedal and i realized that i have that star trinket.

just spill the beans: kadang kadang

just spill the beans: kadang kadang: "okay.i am going to make my blog entry for tonight. just got home from school. i was with a friend earlier, we ate dinner together. i bou..."

kadang kadang

okay.i am going to make my blog entry for tonight.
just got home from school.

i was with a friend earlier, we ate dinner together.
i bought a chocolate for myself.van houten baby.

a friend of mine which happened to be my classmate too wanted me to join "kadang kadang". it's a game using a pole but i told him that i am not good at it and that i won't promise anything. aaand, i am hesitant to join 'coz i fear that i might get bruises or scratches on my legs which i really don't want to happen.

i was not able to get enough sleep last night coz i was a bit problematic. now i hope that i  could get enough sleep tonight though i have to wake up early to join the parade for the opening ceremony of school's charter day.

our supposedly scheduled operating room was again rescheduled to october. just days ago i was thinking that october is just the month after this month. well to my surprise, october is not the month after this month. then the fact that we might not have any duty this semester appeared before me like a ghost, i was in awe realizing that. i think that's a good news and a bad news in one. good news coz we don't have to worry too much and we can get enough sleep for this sem, bad news coz we still don't have any or cases and we are behind with other groups who fortunately had their or duties already.  

at this very moment,i am taking a sip of my coffee.very relaxing.

absent

i don't feel like going to school later today.
i don't feel good.
i just don't feel good.

cold clammy skin.diaphoretic.dizzy.

just spill the beans: harp

just spill the beans: harp: "i first saw a harp from a cartoon show HERCULES. i want to learn how to play this instrument BADLY, too bad nobody offered a harp lesson in ..."

harp

i first saw a harp from a cartoon show HERCULES and the harp is the first stringed instrument made by man. i want to learn how to play this instrument BADLY, too bad nobody offered a harp lesson in our place. i see it as a very classy musical instrument. i love watching videos or cartoons or movies with a man playing a harp. i admire the gracefulness of the musician's fast moving fingers as he touches the strings to produce a soulful music.aside from that, when a harp is played, it gives me that magical feeling.i hope to find someone who could teach me how to play this one OR just take me to a play or concerto so that i can see it with my own eyes, hear the music with my own ears, feel the music in my heart, first hand.

stars

bright shining star in the universe.

bored.sad.i don't know.

i am starting to regret things.
crap.i am bored.
oh no.i am sad.
but seriously, i really don't know what is happening.
i feel a bit sad
i feel like crying
something like that
shrugging my shoulders
taking deep deep breathe. 

just spill the beans: new cut

just spill the beans: new cut: "right after our demonstration, i went to the salon to have my hair fixed. it's quite long so i decided to cut it. "

just spill the beans: operating room

just spill the beans: operating room: "our scheduled or duty for this friday was move to october 2 because of the opening ceremony of our school's charter day. we'll still have ou..."

new cut

right after our demonstration, i went to the salon to have my hair fixed. it's quite long so i decided to cut it. 

operating room

our scheduled or duty for this friday was move to october 2 because of the opening ceremony of our school's charter day. we'll still have our sunday duty though.

we had our or demo this morning.i'm a bit excited but nervous 'coz it'll be our first operating room exposure.i hope everything will turn out fine.

 i need to practice closed gloving and i need to familiarize things inside the operating room. 

sigh

my elbow joints are starting to ache. i was gasping for air earlier. my back is hurting.
i know where will this end.sigh.

but since i had coffee earlier, i am still not sleepy but i'm lying in my bed already.

waist

bigla ko naisip yung kaklase ko na laging pinakikialaman ang beywang ko.ang sakit sakit kasi parang kinukurot niya  ako pero gamit ang buong kamay niya.good thing wala ako pasok bukas,di sasakit baywang ko sa pabigla bigla niyang pagkurot.HAHAHA

just spill the beans: hooked on coffee

just spill the beans: hooked on coffee: "actually, i was advised not to take coffee but due to some inevitable temptations going around , i tasted my first coffee yesterday. i bough..."

hooked on coffee

actually, i was advised not to take coffee but due to some inevitable temptations going around, i tasted my first coffee yesterday. i bought a pack of coffee yesterday, ONE PACK WITH TEN SACHETS. and now i'm down to three sachets of coffee. see how i got so hooked on it?HAHAHA

at this very moment,i am sipping my coffee while thinking. :P  

just spill the beans: now why faux?

just spill the beans: now why faux?: "in this very cruel world, people judge you for what they see in you superficially . they don't bother to really analyse things about you. ..."

now why faux?

in this very cruel world, people judge you for what they see in you superficially. they don't bother to really  analyse things about you.

i was judged in such way. faux not because i am fake, faux because i am not the person they thought i am. they made a fake me out of their opinion. moreover, i see things differently. they say i'm just a plain girl next door who knows nothing about world. but they're wrong. i know how to deal with the hard punches of life. i know how things work.

 don't judge the book by its cover.
silent river runs deep.

just spill the beans: anonymous ft

just spill the beans: anonymous ft: "hi there. just awhile ago,i placed a chat box here. an anonymous girl dropped by to give me some of her views about my blogposts. well, sh..."

anonymous ft

hi there.

just awhile ago,i placed a chat box here. an anonymous girl dropped by to give me some of her views about my blogposts. well, she said i have nice posts. thank you miss.

the music doesn't fit my posts BECAUSE t'was not intended to fit my posts.^^, i created that playlist 'coz those are some of my favorite songs.

then she asked me why faux? mainly because people see me differently. they label me for the things they see in me which doesn't really define the real me. that's it. more like, silent river runs deep. 


thank you miss ft for droppin' by.
don't worry, no more "sweetie".

just spill the beans: i am older than you, i know better than you do

just spill the beans: i am older than you, i know better than you do: " i am older than you,i know better than you do : i don't buy that. i mean, living longer than most of us does not guarantee that you know ..."

i am older than you, i know better than you do

 i am older than you,i know better than you do: i don't buy  that.  i mean, living longer than most of us does not guarantee that you know everything. i think it's a matter of how a person see things and how she deals with things that really matter. why yes, they may be ahead with experiences in life but then again, was she able to absorb the lessons she should learn from those experiences? no matter how many experiences you had in life if you don't know why those things happen,its purpose, it's useless. one should learn from those experiences before she can really say with chin up high "i am older than you, i know better than you do".

length of existence does not always guarantee that you lived a quality life and that you are smarter than those younger than you.that's not always the case.
oh just sayin'.         

just spill the beans: who's WHO??HAHA

just spill the beans: who's WHO??HAHA: "HAHAHAHA.these scribbles of mine made my day.WTF !!! i made this while i was listening to a live performance in the coffee shop. a tissue ..."

who's WHO??HAHA

HAHAHAHA.these scribbles of mine made my day.WTF !!!

i made this while i was listening to a live performance in the coffee shop. 

a tissue i got from the other table.

 i still have it now.HAHAHA

i love you, okay? :P

just spill the beans: rainy afternoon

just spill the beans: rainy afternoon: "the weather is making me lazy. it's raining hard outside and the coldness is conducive for sleeping but i am not going to sleep. i'm makin..."

rainy afternoon

the weather is making me lazy.
it's raining hard outside and the coldness is conducive for sleeping but i am not going to sleep.
i'm making a coffee to fit the situation.
well what do you know i am currently reading the book i bought yesterday.HAHAHA

just spill the beans: there's no expiration date for music,ayt?

just spill the beans: there's no expiration date for music,ayt?: "i ingested three cups of coffee last night and i fell asleep almost five in the morning.just great!! 'coz i can't sleep and wanted to liste..."

there's no expiration date for music,ayt?

i ingested three cups of coffee last night and i fell asleep almost five in the morning.just great!!
'coz i can't sleep and wanted to listen to music,i decided to open my youtube account. moments after,i started playing songs after songs aaaannd i ended up downloading some of my favorite songs.  i feel so happy hearing those music though most are from the '90's, anyway, there's no expiration date for music,ayt?

songs from my playlist are mostly from boy bands. now i am not a pro boy band or anything like that. i just love their music. that's it. artists?savage garden, the calling, smash mouth, red hot chili pepper, sugar ray, creed, oasis and the list goes on. :P

just spill the beans: may be i am a bookworm

just spill the beans: may be i am a bookworm: "well many believed that i'm a nerd or a bookworm. may be they're right,may be i am a bookworm ,no for nerd. i don't really read novels 'c..."

may be i am a bookworm

well many believed that i'm a nerd or a bookworm. may be they're right,may be i am a bookworm,no for nerd.

i don't really read novels 'coz my eyes easily get tired of those pictureless books with super small font sizes. i heard from some people that reading enables them to escape reality for a span of time, i say it's true 'coz when i read books, school books to be exact, i feel the same. a big check for that.

from the people i know, they want to be entertained that's why they read books. some say it has been there only remedy from the hard punches of life.  if you are to ask me, the main reason why i read books A toZ is because i want to feed my soul  for me to be able to enhance my personality, my being. i heighten my vocabulary through reading books or articles, i get new writing techniques from  books, i learn those beautiful lines and phrases from books, apart from that i want to get new ideas about life and everything under the heat of the sun. for entertainment purposes?no. to escape reality?not really.

i favor reading articles than reading novels. aside from the small font sizes, i really don't have an idea on what books i should read, what books are considered good and what are not. i want to be informed---this is the only criterion i have whenever i plan to buy books.   

just spill the beans: late lunch

just spill the beans: late lunch: "back cover of the book front cover.see the price tag? siomai view from my chair.it's raining outside. i went out again today...."

late lunch

back cover of the book

front cover.see the price tag?

siomai

view from my chair.it's raining outside.

i went out again today. first stop at the drug store: i bought a new penlight for i lost mine and i bought also clean gloves. second stop: i went to booksale and i bought a book there entitled "know it by heart". third stop at the dermhouse: i had my facial there while reading my newly bought book. fourth stop: i got out of the dermhouse and headed straight to chowking for lunch. fifth stop at the supermarket: i bought something for myself and i bought a pack of coffee though i was hesitant to buy at first.     

just spill the beans: impending doom

just spill the beans: impending doom: "at 3am of 4th of July,i was rushed to the hospital by a friend from the neighborhood. i was having hard time breathing and my chest pain was..."

impending doom

at 3am of 4th of July,i was rushed to the hospital by a friend from the neighborhood. i was having hard time breathing and my chest pain was so severe that i had to cry 'coz i really don't know what to do. pretty diaphoretic and shivering and i felt like an impending doom was coming.good thing my friend is just a house away.i sent her a message and she waited for me outside the house. the hospital is just near here and she is a staff of the hospital.

from the moment i lay down in the stretcher i really don't know what was happening.all i can hear were voices and i can see lights over me.

hours later i was discharged 'coz i decided not to stay long,i just wanted to seek a little help from the hospital. again, this is not new to me. i've been rushed to the hospital for many times and my parents knew nothing about it.

cry

i wanna cry. i mean i am crying now. i feel so sad. i've been feeling so sad lately, all i want to do is cry. i went to the church the other day and i cried there while asking for a little help from GOD. I DON'T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM FEELING. all i want to do is cry. much as i want to share it to someone, i can't 'coz i fear that they might just get annoyed and i know they don't give a damn.

all i want is to cry.i feel so down,super duper down. all i want to do is cry.

just spill the beans: this is making me crazy

just spill the beans: this is making me crazy: "to continue... i had a dream before about me and my 'girlfriend'. but my girlfriend in that dream is not the girlfriend i was with when i ..."

this is making me crazy

to continue...

i had a dream before about me and my "girlfriend". but my girlfriend in that dream is not the girlfriend i was with when i dreamt of that. first dream was in the pool side, i was wearing a bikini in that dream and talking to some people. then she came and grabbed my arm so hard that i really felt that someone really grabbed my hand FOR REAL. she was furious about me wearing only that bikini while talking to other people.second dream, in the pool. we were on the corner of the pool and we were talking about some stuff when she suddenly kissed me.

from the first dream alone, i told myself before that i'm determined to find that "girlfriend". that "girlfriend" got me really confused. my girlfriend in that dream looks like this: chinky eyes, white skinned, short hair, and taller than me.

just spill the beans: delusion of mine

just spill the beans: delusion of mine: "finaaaaaally...i was able to talk to her.i am so haaaaaaaaappy.HAHAHAHA i really don't why i have this very deep attachment to her wherein ..."

delusion of mine

finaaaaaally...i was able to talk to her.i am so haaaaaaaaappy.HAHAHAHA
i really don't why i have this very deep attachment to her wherein fact we just met and we became lovers for a short time only. i'm at ease in her company, it seems like i've known her for so long. i know i easily fall in love but me getting hurt after our three days relationship was so unusual,i got hurt so badly.daaaaammnn!!i always miss her. i am not like this in the past. i wonder  why am i like this. i don't know why i feel this way.

she told me once that i caught her attention 'coz i appear so mysterious and i've never been so flattered in my life when she told me that. i wanted to tell her too that i was eyeing her since then. there was also a time that i got hurt when she posted something sweet about her girlfriend, i was so bitter like as if i was her ex- girlfriend.i don't know. straaaaaaange,right?

now these strange things are really strange. is she my soulmate?

since i was in high school i am fond of scribbling letters especially letter "J". her name starts with "J". moreover, she likes stars and rabbits too. thinking about these stuffs makes me crazy. i need to stop this delusions of mine. may be this is just a coincidence. oh well. 

just spill the beans: mini skirt

just spill the beans: mini skirt: "flats white top and mini skirt my bracelet and necklace my bag i went out earlier with this outfit.i was supposed to pair..."

mini skirt

flats 

white top and mini skirt

my bracelet and necklace

my bag

i went out earlier with this outfit.i was supposed to pair my white top with my high-waist skirt but i decided to use mini skirt instead.

i went to the coffee shop again.i just love coffee shops so much.

just spill the beans: coffee shops

just spill the beans: coffee shops: "i don’t really drink coffee but i love coffee shops. i love sitting inside the coffee shop and see how much i accomplished and all. may be ..."

coffee shops

i don’t really drink coffee but i love coffee shops. i love sitting inside the coffee shop and see how much i accomplished and all. may be ‘coz coffee shops give me that peace of mind and tranquility. 

when i’m bored or i feel so down,i go out and stay in the coffee shop—to read,eat,think.

oh just saying.

just spill the beans: jae's message

just spill the beans: jae's message: "i got this message from my friend. i'll leave the faucet in the shower on, drink until the world is spinning. overdose on a variety of med..."

jae's message

i got this message from my friend.

i'll leave the faucet in the shower on, drink until the world is spinning. overdose on a variety of medicines just to get that hit. then, i'll smoke crack,weed, and meth. i'll fall asleep on the floor, hoping that my wish to die has been heard. and i can drown in happy thoughts of you knowing you're already gone. i can drown my sorrow away because no matter what happens, you're never coming back.

we share the same skies so i posted this.
all credit goes to you.

just spill the beans: candles

just spill the beans: candles: "my outfit for today:blue stripe long sleeves, blue green shorts me today these are the candles i offered with prayers. zoey cafe'..."

candles

my outfit for today:blue stripe long sleeves, blue green shorts

me today

these are the candles i offered with prayers.

zoey cafe's neon light 

black forest cake

mongolian beef

mango shake

after eating my mongolian beef

after eating everything

scribbles

gaaaaaaah.i'm so down in the dumps today.late in the rainy afternoon, i decided to go downtown to withdraw some money then pay visit to the church. just as i arrived in the church, there's a mass going on so i sat down and listened to the priest. the homily got really something to do with my situation so i listened attentively. after the mass, i went to the area where you can light up a candle and offer prayers. i went back inside the church and i prayed again.i was crying the whole time. i stayed inside the church for a while. maybe 30 minutes after, i headed down to my favorite cafe in our place:zoey cafe. i ordered mongolian beef, mango shake, and black forest cake for my dessert. the ambiance of the place was  so good that i decided to stay there longer than i planned plus there was live performance, i took then the chance to watch them perform. i just love the first song she sang, close to you.